Today, I return to writing about
parenting.
Fascination –
Have I told you, I am in complete awe of evolution? What I saw as a 6
millimetre black and white picture in a scan report grew into something so
beautiful and is now with us, right here! I cannot but marvel with a dropped
jaw at the miracle that is life.
Forgo – You learn
to let go. Let go of sleep, jobs, looks perhaps and in some cases, lifestyles
all together. Priorities get a rejig. The beauty of it is that, although you
let go, there’s so much you get in return – unconditionally. Love, joy, a sense
of belonging, a feeling of being wanted, being able to provide, protect, teach
and raise another human being!
Fear – As a
new mother, I was always scared whether I was doing it right. I constantly tried
to live up to the most perfect image of the role – my mother. Also, being
completely accountable for another soul is the single most important responsibility
that life entrusts us with.
Fury to Fatigue
– Most of this emotion actually started out as Fury. With time, the fury
sobered down to just fatigue. Not so much the physical fatigue of going through
the pregnancy, labour, surgical procedures et al. It is more the fatigue of
listening to endless unsolicited advice, opinions, comments and every other conceivable
mode of interference there is. And all this about myriad issues – about the
baby herself, my parenting style, the dos and the don’ts, the right and the
wrong. The list is endless.
What are the
things that parenting has changed in you? Do you have experiences to share?
Fascination. I don't think any other word can describe it as beautifully and truly. I now laugh at it, but after I first saw my baby's scan on screen at 5 weeks, I remember telling anyone who asked me about it - I saw hands, legs and even a smile!! :-) It is the best miracle nature could have managed.
ReplyDeleteBingo Rama! It truly is something, isn't it?
DeleteTrue Lanise. I think these are teething troubles and handling such doubts gets better as time goes by. As long as the fear doesn't become a paranoia, I think it is alright!
ReplyDeleteEverything under the sun! I was just like every first time parent till one day I told myself that there is no right and there is no wrong. Just do your best and everything will be okay.
ReplyDeleteYeah, I have realised that over the past few months. Thanks for visiting my blog and taking the time out to leave a comment. Good luck with the rest of the challenge!
DeleteI so agree. Parenting can bring out so many emotions in us. In my case, I still look at my three boys (aged 7 to 17) and wonder, "Did we really create these human beings?" It never ceases to amaze me.
ReplyDeleteIt is nice to know that the amazement lasts that long Marie :) Welcome to The Magic Quill.
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